I have a mind that screams in silence.  My favorite past time is coming face to face with the void, understanding the blank spaces.  Contemplating between truly living than mere existence.  Aimless and adrift. I’m breathing ice and fire at the same time. If a finger had to be cut in order to save the hand, I’ll do it.  But everyone cries for second chance.  A necessary evil clothe under the banner of tough love.  There’s a vague pain within the secret recesses of my heart. What you don't know won't hurt you.  Better grieve w ith the truth than comforted with a lie.  A long unspoken apology is forever lost in my thoughts. We live in a world full of unsteady people.  Is there someone in your life willing to knock holes in roof?  Blessed be who got one.  I patched the roof after the thrill is gone. 

"Blessed are the forgetful, for they get the better even of their blunders"

You played it too safe Stuck on your comfort zone Get real, just be honest Don't hold back your feelings Jump off the cliff, take risks Embrace the fall, don’t quit Shake, shake your boring soul Wake up you have slept long Hey, spice up your life Show your playful side You don't have to bleed To know you're alive You overstayed in the darkness Somewhat addicted to sadness Have fun, don’t frown Be fool, you’re a beautiful letdown If you can’t see the light, I’ll sit with you in the dark To make you smile, make you laugh Help you realize you are loved So now… Spice up your life Show your playful side You don't have to bleed To know you're alive

In the outskirts of mind To the depths of soul A gap in heartbeat Her eyes burning cold A fatal imperfection She's full of contradiction Refuge in isolation Deep down it's revolution Draped in divine promise from the sky But there is more than meets the eye A raging star fell from heaven Careful, she's a blazing ruin

Where do you run When you're breaking down? Where do you run When you're screaming now? Where do you run When there's no one to hear? Where do you run When you need to breathe? Where do you run When you don't believe? Where do you run When you can't face your fears? 'Cause every time I run, I run to You Where do you, where do you go? Where do I, you're all alone Where do you, where do you run? I run to You Where do you, where do you hide? When you are torn up inside? Where do you, where do you run? ---The Score

'Who I was, who I am now, who I wanna be' Who would have thought you'd end up this far Who are behind your highs and lows Who are you without life's painful blows   When you want to quit but you can’t When you want to un-love but it’s hard When you want to forget but memories flash back When you want to move on but there’s a block Where is everyone when you need them so Where do you find a place with no goodbyes but just hellos Where are you heading if you don't know what to do Where would you be if you lost your sanity What you want isn't what you really need What you're doing is not making any sense What's the remedy for self-inflicted pain What it takes to make everything ok again Why does your existence even matter Why is it difficult to be happy than sad Why expect a different result by doing the same thing Why did you stop chasi...

" ' You Found Me' is such a great song you should really listen to it. I love it as if it were my own child. The heart ache, the let down that comes with life. Sometimes you’re let down, sometimes you’re the one who let someone else down. It gets hard to know who you can trust, who you can count on. This song came out of a tough time, and I’m still right in the thick of it. There’s some difficult circumstances my family and friends have been going through over the past year or so and it can be overwhelming. It wears on me. It demands so much of my faith to keep believing, keep hoping in the unseen. Sometimes the tunnel has a light at the end, but usually they just look black as night. This song is about that feeling, and the hope that I still have, buried deep in my chest. ” "I kept getting these phone calls from home - tragedy after tragedy... If there is some kind of Person in charge of this planet - are they sleeping? Smoking? Where are they? I jus...

           I have intermittent thoughts of wanting to leave, to disappear from people’s lives without a trace. I did it when I was in high school, college and after the academe years too. I became a ghost, with this I mean withdrawal of communication and not providing information for ending any form of relationship. I take no pride of this at all especially that most folks I deal with have good souls. But sometimes even if we’re surrounded with love, darkness has a unique way to seep in through our system.             You may ask why, I honestly don’t know. Just one mundane day, as I repeatedly listened to my top favorite songs, I found myself crying in the middle of an upbeat tune. It’s supposed to uplift my spirit but I ended up wiping the unceasing flow of tears on my cheeks. I stared blankly at the walls hoping it could slap me hard and wake me up from this madness. Obviously it can’t so I have to deal with this alone. ...

Familiar fragrance that mysterious scent you wear I knew it, I swear I knew it My olfactory memory can’t retrieve it A lotion? Soap? Shampoo? You reacted when I said perfume Cologne is for men Perfume is for women I disagree Still, you insist Like Kurt Cobain I’m intrigued he Smells like Teen Spirit a deodorant brand But what’s your cologne?! I’m eager to know you wouldn’t spill a secret you carry to the grave

I’m trying to enter your universe, guess I don’t belong there anymore. It’s crowded and I can’t find a space to fit in at all. Funny how you invaded my world and left without  a word.  I gazed at the stars above and envy how they seemed so tight to one another from afar.  But with closer look the distance that separates them is huge. Yeah it makes sense now, 'all that glitters is not gold.'  I thought about it for a while, then I rest my case and believe that there was a fault in our stars back then. 

When I’m sad and feeling blue I just look at you and everything feels brand new  You have the ability to turn my mundane day into fun As someone who sees the magic in life You’re my bundle of crazy energy  and contagious glee Oh how I love thee You make things less heavy Asking you to pray for me  Like you’re a gateway to the heavens  Until now I still wonder Why dog is a palindrome of God You’re my reminder  To love is the answer Enjoy the present and live in the moment  

What a wonderful memory When we rode on a car with open air Admired the view, sat next to you Together we drifted to the music of our souls I rest my head on your chest Listened to every beat of your heart You tightly wrapped me in your arms Then your gentle kiss on my forehead next Your body felt like home Safe, warm and comfortable I was more of me when I'm with you, Unafraid to be emotional or quirky A happy recollection of shared love I thanked God for that moment Though you found a new home It doesn’t hurt anymore

I’m writing garbage There’s full of trash in my head lately And a lot of clamor too Declutter on the way Catching some fresh air Walking restlessly downtown The hustle and bustle unnerve me Come quickly, take me to the summit Calling out Genie, show yourself please I only have one wish Make my inner world a better place Give my mind a sense of peace

My brain has no more space to breathe It's full and about to blow Tried to contain the force within The pressure’s too much, it exploded Did you hear my thoughts? They were screaming in the air Nobody seemed to care I sent a signal, a cry for help Someone asked if I'm ok My mouth said Yes but my heart's a big NO The Fellow is not convinced, and asked again ‘Is something wrong? Do you need help?' I paused to ponder, Collecting my thoughts for the best answer A resounding 'no, there's nothing wrong' A lie, a mask to appear I'm strong When nothing usually means everything Everything just doesn't make perfect sense Is this life a joke? Tell me it's not co'z I'm about to choke I got family and friends A good-paying decent job Activities left and right But still uncertain where would all these lead to Meaningless motion, created more inner commotion Direction, I'm looking for direction Yes I have a map, seeme...